Many of you may know that I experiment with my diet here and there. Recently I spent about 2 full months eating 85-95% raw everyday. Because I was working a lot it made it really easy. I would eat all fruits, vegetables, and greens for breakfast and lunch. In the evening I would have another big salad or smoothie. Sometimes I would splurge with a cooked meal here and there but never before Pm.
  Over the course of two months I got down to my target weight of 170lbs. This was not happening before I focused on eating mostly raw. This was really rewarding and felt like a big accomplishment. That was until my experience over the course of the last week.
  During the Halloween weekend I somehow ended up eating approximately 40 pieces of candy. I hadn't eaten more than even 1 piece of candy in a whole week previously. This put me on a sugar rush for the weekend. Sometime Sunday I began to come down. Started feeling tired and basically like everything was a bit off. My stomach turned and gurgled. I just wanted more sugar. I needed something different from the fruits and veges. I did what a person on the Standard American Diet does. I went out and had a cheeseburger and a frosty from wendys. Then I bought my groceries for the week which included cheetos, fritos, teddy grahams, mini oreos, pringles, sliced turkey, bread and canned fruits. 
  Monday morning at work for break I had my turkey sandwich, canned pineapple, pringles and teddy grahams. Felt just like old times, say 5 years ago. About 40 mins after break I felt horrible. A basic loss of energy. A churning stomach and gas. As the day went on I felt my body struggling to keep a simple pace that I had done for 2 months. Though I could see right in front of me what was happening I couldn't bring myself to trash $80 worth of groceries and buy what I knew I should be eating. Monday night I soothed the tired and by this point slightly annoyed body with 4 taco bell crunchy tacos. Great idea! I felt wonderful for about 1 hr and then I went to sleep.
   Sometime Tuesday after lunch I was at complete breakdown. Not so much physically as my body had kinda adapted to dealing with the crap food. Emotionally and mentally though....holy crap. I was forgetting stuff that needed to be done. I was breaking drill bits. Things just wouldn't fit together which only led to more sadness, disgust and overall bad attitude. As the week went on through wed and Thursday it was just amazing. My thoughts spiraled continuously into more and more negative ideas. Sometime on Thursday I found myself using thought processes that I used to do about 5-7 years ago when I was a smoker/drinker/SAD dieter. I was in a depression that was really disturbing. 
  Complete disbelief had come over me on Thursday night. Anything that anyone said or did just didn't resonate with me. I was annoyed with people at work, family, friends and even the nicest comments seemed to make me sick. What had I become? Truth is I became all that dead food I was eating. I could never see this contrast previously. The gradual change to more raw food seemed great but I really couldn't compare because so much had changed for me in my life.
  Today I ate 100% raw again. I could just feel the detox all day. Slowly flowing through all the stuff that messed with me all week. Culminating in the world serving me an amazing release of energy. I had to drive in traffic to pick up my paycheck today. It was ridiculous. People driving horribly EVERYWHERE. As I was sitting in a long line of cars getting up to a light. I was about to finally make it through the light on the 3rd cycle(7mins) when inexplicably the van directly in front of me stops at the green light. Everyone almost smashes into each other as I screech to a halt behind him. Laying on my horn, flailing my arms going WTF? I continue to honk, wave, and point at the light "ITS GREEN BUDDY".  Not moving the van, he was obviously alive in the van and the engine was running. I presume he would move when it turned green again. I'm still irate though. 2 more mins pass and the light changes again and this effin guy doesn't budge. Now its not only me with the horn but about 15 of the cars behind us as well. He proceeds to sit through the entire light again. I felt an amazing rage and when I realized there was nothing I could do but sit there. The horn didn't work to move him. I was like 1 inch behind his bumper as were the successive cars in the line cause of the situations of our initial stop. 2 more mins and finally BAM he is movin like a bottle rocket on 4th of July. Full gas racing up to like 55mph in a 45mph zone. Me close behind going WTF is this guy doing. The next light turns yellow as he is flying. I brake calmly about 5 seconds before he even noticed the light change. He slams the breaks and skids fishtailing into the intersection to the point where his van is at a 45 degree angle.
  Enough of that story. Sorry for the tangent. Anyway, I felt a huge release in this moment seeing that guy sideways in the intersection just sorta like clicked something in my head. I was like wow how did I get to this point. Anger is not my thing. Normally I would have just laughed this off. My body is still detoxing but I am starting to feel great again. I stocked up my fridge. Ate a great smoothie. Got these amazing Giant Pomegranates. Things are back on track and I can now say without a doubt "We become the food we eat". I want to put only living foods into my body. I want to become more alive. Be a part of the earth. Expand, grow and really live. WIsh I could say that includes more posts on this blog but nobody can tell when the inspiration will come. Enjoy your life and think about what you eat. Thanks for reading.