I dont know
I feel like my mind is opened to a great energy again here in California. Today I hid my face from it. I smile with joy while feeling lost. Looking for sympathy or caring never comes from begging for it. That being said I felt like listing some stuff I dont know in hopes that someone will find a tidbit of joy from this.
I dont know:
how to express most stuff I feel. Or more likely why I dont try.
why no matter what I do there is an emptiness inside. Most of us were born this way.
why nobody adores me. I adore everyone I meet.
where good converstation comes from. Why its so elusive to me.
what mutual love is like. Not from your parents.
how to make good friends. Im good at keeping them though.
what questions to ask. Listening to the answers is easy though.
how to be inside a bar without having a drink. water after water leads to the bathroom.
how to have sex. Ill admit I probably just forgot this one cause I think i remember it sometime in back in my 20s.
why no matter how much I know about poker I still only know 10% of it. Its like poker expands exponentially by the day
where to find someone who understands me. At least someone bored enough to try
why listing a bunch of things I dont know makes me feel slightly better. Still doesnt elicit the right response to fill that emptiness.
Ask me a question, answer one of my thoughts above or just allow me to listen to your thoughts and ideas. I assure you I care much more about your thoughts, ideas, problems or questions and helping you decipher them than you might think. Thanks for reading. Have fun and Think.
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